The Realisation

Many, many things made me smile today. I realized things that should have been so obvious and wondered if those things had been obvious to everyone else all along, with just me bumbling through in the dark with no earthly clue. The first feeling, unsurprisingly, was shame, the little shivery grasp holding your lungs tight, the default that I want to chase out of my home; it is the rabid animal that keeps nibbling on my crops.

But trying to chase it away only powers it more with the resistance, so I may have to just let it float. I wonder if it will ever release its shining, wet clenched fists, sobbing down an empty box with all walls secured.

The imp on my shoulder purrs gently and curls around all the hard edges, but freezes when asked a point blank question. It moulds itself to anything it can grab. The imp has carried me all the way here, but I think the imp might be due for some time away.